To My Little Man in the Last Month of Pregnancy, We've made it to 37 weeks together. It has been a long road to get here, huh? It hasn't been an easy road either. We've had hurdles in each trimester and it has made it hard for me to enjoy this time with you. You … Continue reading A Letter to My Unborn Son
Mother’s Day Limbo: Am I a Mother or Not?
Today I am 32 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby boy. I should have a three-month-old if I hadn't miscarried. I've been told I shouldn't think of the what-could-have-been, but how could I not? Everyone wished me a happy mother's day today, but am I a mother? At what point do we decide if a … Continue reading Mother’s Day Limbo: Am I a Mother or Not?
When Bad News is Confirmed: The Echocardiogram
The pandemic shut the world down a year ago. In that time, I have gotten pregnant, suffered a miscarriage, had a D&C, and got pregnant again. This pregnancy hasn't been easy either. During my first trimester, I had a subchorionic hematoma and spent quite a bit of time on modified bed rest due to bleeding. … Continue reading When Bad News is Confirmed: The Echocardiogram
Week 21 and Anatomy Scan: A New Kind of Stress
The anatomy scan is always something to look forward to in pregnancy. Not only is it the halfway point in pregnancy, but it is also the longest ultrasound where you get to see every part of your beautiful, growing baby. They check every part of your baby, every system, to make sure everything is on … Continue reading Week 21 and Anatomy Scan: A New Kind of Stress
A Due Date with No Baby: How I Coped with the Grief after a Miscarriage
Bean was a missed miscarriage at 9 weeks. I had a D&C a week later. He would have been due on January 31st. Now, I know that most babies are not born on their due date, but that day had been engrained in my head. We should have been bringing a baby home around that … Continue reading A Due Date with No Baby: How I Coped with the Grief after a Miscarriage
Grief After a Miscarriage: January is Too Much
This January sucks. I'm just going to come out and say it. Not only are we (still) dealing with COVID and all the stressful stuff that comes with it, but it's just a heap of grief rolled into the first month of the year for me. January 7th marks 6 months since I had my … Continue reading Grief After a Miscarriage: January is Too Much
It’s a Boy and I Should Be Celebrating
I am 16 weeks pregnant. I still cannot believe it. After all the troubles of my first trimester, I assumed I would feel much better since the risk of miscarriage has decreased drastically, but I still worry. It could be because this month would have been Bean's due date. In the last 3 weeks, we … Continue reading It’s a Boy and I Should Be Celebrating
From Miscarriage to 10 weeks: How I’m Coping with My Loss While Pregnant
I am almost 10 weeks pregnant with my Rainbow Baby, but I would have been 32 weeks this week with my Bean. I have been thinking a lot about Bean lately and I'm not entirely sure why. I have had a few scares with this pregnancy and was diagnosed with a subchorionic hematoma. I don't … Continue reading From Miscarriage to 10 weeks: How I’m Coping with My Loss While Pregnant
A Scary Rainbow in the Pandemic: Our Subchorionic Hematoma Story
I had a missed miscarriage at 9 weeks back in June. I underwent a D&C a week later. It took 5 weeks for my period to return and after that, we were told we could start trying to conceive. If you scroll back on my blog, you can find my posts about the miscarriage, procedure, … Continue reading A Scary Rainbow in the Pandemic: Our Subchorionic Hematoma Story
Pregnancy After Loss: You Need a Village
So, you've gotten a positive pregnancy test after your miscarriage. Me too. Let's talk about that because I know you are freaking out just like me. I got my little plus sign at about 4 weeks. When my husband and I looked at the positive test, I cried. I was happy, but I also didn't … Continue reading Pregnancy After Loss: You Need a Village